You

Our cold lips interlocked

As I felt the warmth inside him

Tiny flakes of white sprinkled around

Showering us

And though I was shivering

In that moment the world felt still

Paused

And I wish I could rewind

To a moment when he still loved me

But I can’t

I’m stuck here

In a never ending cycle of “you’re not good enough”s

But I’ll still kiss him back

Hoping to find the me I lost

My tongue searching his mouth for answers

But there’s no use

How do I find myself

When I’m not lost in a place

But a person

Who’s heart won’t accept me

How do I search for me

when I’m trespassing In you

I hope I didn’t lose a piece of me I still loved

Trying to love you

Enough for you to love me too